June 15, 2013
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Divide
Tilting my head back, I take a deep breath to take in all of my surroundings. I can feel each and every heart beat within me, as if it was the ringing of the church bells. That faint feeling, of it slowing down. Not from illness, but from your own mind, your own emotions.. Your own heart.
Each and every sigh, feeling heavier than the last until it feels like you've got bags of sand on your chest. All of us have felt it at one point or the other in our life.. But how did we move past it? How do we figure out what it is, and where it comes from? Sometimes, we know exactly what it is, it's just a matter of how we want to deal with anything past that which consumes us and our thoughts.
That deep compressing feeling, mixed with the knowledge of there's just something missing in your life.. I know what it is, but I still to this day fail to recognize it's existance. I know it's because my heart longs to be tethered to someone, but I honestly have no desire to let anyone get close.. Although, I know I'll eventually need to pull off my armor.. I don't think I'm ready to just yet..
