January 13, 2007

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  ‘Like it or not’
  
  You can call me a sinner
  
  and you can call me a saint
  
  Celebrate me for who I am
  
  Dislike me for what I ain’t
  
  Put me up on a pedestal
  
  Or drag me down in the dirt
  
  Sticks and stones will break my bones
  
  But your names will never hurt
  
  
  
  I’ll be the garden, you’ll be the snake
  
  All of my fruit is yours to take
  
  Better the devil that you know
  
  Your love for me will grow
  
  Because
  
  
  
  This is who I am
  
  You can like it or not
  
  You can love me or leave me
  
  Cause I’m never gonna stop, no no
  
  
  
  Cleopatra had her way
  
  Mata Hari too
  
  Whether they were good or bad
  
  Is strictly up to you
  
  
  
  Life is a paradox
  
  And it doesn’t make much sense
  
  You can’t have the femme without the fatale
  
  Please don’t take offense
  
  
  
  Don’t let the fruit rot under the vine
  
  Fill up your cup and let’s drink the wine
  
  Better the devil that you know
  
  Your love for me will grow
  
  Because
  
  
  
  This is who I am
  
  You can like it or not
  
  You can love me or leave me
  
  Cause I’m never gonna stop,
  
  
  
  no no, you know
  
  
  
  This is who I am
  
  You can like it or not
  
  You can love me or leave me
  
  Cause I’m never gonna stop,
  
  
  
  no no, you know
  
  
  
  No no, you know
  
  No no, you know
  
  No no, you know
  
  No no, you know
  
  
  
  I’ll be the garden, you’ll be the snake
  
  All of my fruit is yours to take
  
  Better the devil that you know
  
  Your love for me will grow
  
  Because
  
  
  
  This is who I am
  
  You can like it or not
  
  You can love me or leave me
  
  Cause I’m never gonna stop, no no, you know
  
  This is who I am
  
  You can like it or not
  
  You can love me or leave me
  
  Cause I’m never gonna stop, no no, you know
  
  
  
  No no, you know
  
  No no, you know
  
  No no, you know
  
  No no, you know
  

  
  
  Anyways,

  Hehe, Alright. I figured I should updated since no one really has heard anything from me as of late.

  Well, let’s see. Next wednesday will be 6 months for me and Kevin. That’ll be the longest relationship I have ever had. Seriously, it will be. lol. And I am glad to be with him, every waking moment I can. Even when I just talk to him online, or on the phone, I still smile at his voice. Wow, I love him so much.

  Anyways, Military ball is coming up soon. I got my dress for it, and yes.. He has seen it. And he likes it. which makes me happy, also. I think you all like it.

  Here’s a pic of it:

  

  Yeah, I know. Pretty bad picture, I know.. But what you can see, its a nice dress.. Right?

  I think it is, anyways. =D
  
  APATHY
  1) absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement.

  2) Lack of interest in or concern for things that others find moving or exciting.

  3) Stocism. Freedom from emotion of any kind.
  

  You might be
  thinking to yourself right about now: Why is this huge? Why is it so
  important? What does this have to do with the song. I’ll tell you. Its
  how I feel right now. If you make it to the bottom, then you shall know
  why the HELL I feel this way. Reasons are to be explained. Those who
  wish to take my advice, can.. The people that need to read this the
  most have NO IDEA about this, and probably will NEVER read it. So, all
  of this typing.. is FUTILE.. But I MUST get it out of my system. I am
  TIRED of feeling like a psychopath. I am tired of feeling like a idiot
  infront of them. I am tired of everything in human life.

  NEXT TOPICCCC

  *ahem, *

  Lets see. Relationships. Yes. That’s it. Relationships. Especially ones with my friends. Some people are now excluded from this, and I think you can tell if you are or not.

  Anwyays. Here is my Rant:

  Relationships. They rule, Yes, I know this. I know you all are happy that you have ‘found’ that ‘someone’ for a short period in your life.. If not, your life mate. But please. Seriously. Here are some things for you all to remember when you hang out with me, and your Boyfriend/Girlfriend is with you.

  1) Don’t fucking make out in cars at stop lights if you are driving.
  2) Don’t make out while I am trying to have a decent, smart conversation with you.
  3) Don’t get in the back seat of peoples cars and act like its your fucking bed. You fucking nasty ass people.
  4) Don’t be like ‘OMFG. I LOVE HIM/HER SO MUCH. ‘ *Sex, sex, sex* after the first week.

  These things are really starting to bug me, thus I stopped hanging out with people for a while. I really don’t like relatonships like that, and yes.. YOU ALL HAVE CHANGED. SEVERELY.

  I think you all really know I don’t like relationships that are really lovey dovey in public. I mean, a kiss every once in a while, just like a peck.. is alright. holding hands is alright. But straddling your ‘soul mate partner’ in the back seat of a car.. is just.. NO.

  This makes me unhappy x 10.. Please refrain from doing it if you respect my wishes to NOT SEE YOU ACT LIKE A SKANK INFRONT OF ME.
  
  CHANGE OF SUBJECT. NOW.
  
  Ahem, Anyways. what was the next thing on my mind. Oh yes:

  Cars.
  Yes, I know you all have cars, if you own them. But there is no fucking need to always brag about it. A car is something essentially to just GET YOU AROUND. Not something to be like ‘My car is a LUXURY CAR, AND IT IS ELITE. ‘ No, its not. I really don’t like the car anymore because YOUR TOO FUCKING OBSESSED WITH IT. This isn’t just for them. Its for Riced out pieces of SHIT, too. with spoilers that DON’T FUCKING BELONG ON THERE. TAKE THAT SHIT OFF, AND DON’T SPEND THAT MONEY ON BULLSHIT LIKE THAT, YOU FUCKING IDIOTS. I swear to god, I hate people right now.

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  End of post.

  If you have made it this far, then you now know what the hell has been bugging me. I hate change. the people that I love, or did love are now Changing. Friendship and relationships should NOT, and I repeat NOT be mixed together. Its VERY lethal, and all attempts at a stable friendship after the horrid all knowing break up, is FUTILE.

  I don’t know why you people bother. You all make me sick at times with your stupidness, shallowness, and quickness to change in Relationships. What happened to being yourself. What happened to changing for NO ONE, except when you KNOW they are the right person.

  Oh well, I guess as long as you people are happy, and have no idea how much your friends actually HATE the shit you do, then it is fine.

  Until next time,
  
  Goodnight, all.
  
  Much love. <3
  
  

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