March 20, 2007

• Dizzy, so dizzy.. Spinning around, and around.. Letting everything consume me, use me, abuse me, love me, hate me, Treasure me, then throw me away.. Spinning, spinning, so rapidly.. Not sure who I am, not sure what I'm doing.. Not sure of anything anymore.. Spinning, spinning.. Until I fall..
  
  Falling, falling, falling from the Dizziness, falling far, far, down to the ground.. slamming against the floor, the Cold Ceramic tile.. It feels so nice now, so cool.. against my skin.. Its much better than the heat that I have within.. It soothes me, it makes me never want to move, as I lay there, dried up and dead to the world. Scared to get up, Scared to look around, I close my eyes as I lay there, whilst tears slowly fall down my cheeks.. "What have I done to be forsaken?" I whisper, my lifeless body heaving in sobs, as now.. I know what I truely feel.. Despair..
  
  Despair, Sadness, Forsaken.. Am I that of the devils torture? To know no love, no sympathy, no desire to ever want to walk again? Do I have no heart to love? Am I just a toy to all of mankind, to let me slide through their fingers, as if I was blood itself? Blood..A unique substance.. Such beauty, desire... Despair.. such things it can hold.. but yet, I feel it run coldly through my heart.. as if I was truly a vampire..
  
  Thunder.. Hear its cry, the gods have spoken, I am their toy..They play me, my misery too.. To show that I should fear their Fury.. Thunder, it cracks again, I lay lifeless, still again.. Rain, begins to poor, the sound, soothing to my tears.. as they slowly stop.. I close my eyes, and listen, listen, listen to the nice beat of the rain..Soon, I'm away.. Far away.. In a Dream..
  
  Dreaming, Dreaming, Dreaming a sweet sweet melody.. Only one, that I alone can hear. One of which.. I heed my cries, I call to him, I shake my fists  and send my battle cry "My emotions may be played, but I shall show nothing but vengance" they say, as I heave my spear, into the sky of my dream, falling to my knees, beholding a picture of my lover.. the one I inquire about the most..
  
  Till' another day..
  
  -Char

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