August 1, 2012

  • Abandonment.

    I feel.. alone. Completely, and utterly alone. As if, I was just a 'get me by' until you found something better.. As if you didn't even want to touch me, hold me, or kiss me.. I feel as if when I accepted you, you didn't want to accept me.. Though, you said you loved my body.. You missed me.. It doesn't show.. Almost a full two days without contact to you, and although I have been worried, wondering if you are alright.. I see that you deactivated your facebook.. And I'm left wondering -- Was this all for nothing? Was I just a joke? An excuse to get you by? Were you even real to me? Where am I suppose to go from here..

    I don't know. My wanderer, have you truly abandoned me? Have you truly left me to my own demise? It seems so unfair, but so fitting.. I hurt, so much over this.. but I'm not going to wait for an answer.. Barely any contact for three days, No texts for a full day.. I know when to take the hints, and just like that.. I'll vanish.

    If you truly care, if you truly want me, time is against you right now.. Make it known to me, let me know that you want me. If you don't, I'll walk right back out the door.